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Family, Do we need them?I received email note from my big sisexcited to see her name I opened quickly my excitement soon turned to 'what's this'? a terse note "please take me off your undisclosed list" not a thank you, I enjoy hearing from you or, do not send photos cause they take to long to come through "I am on dial up and I am not computer literate I have no end of problems that I don't know how to fix it. they are causing problems, goes off line before they show" ..The last time I saw or talked to her was 9 years ago nothing about what has been happening in her neck of the woods put a real damper on my first correspondence since childhood I was just keeping my family updated I did think she would hate this she does not write so I do not know how she is just a terse note to take her off my list! So, What do I make of this email? that she does not have any time for me I hear from one sibling out of three It was Mum who was the glue of our family I thought blood was thinker than water I am almost young enough to be her daughter yet she has not been much of mentor we never shared anything like sisters I had always hoped that we would grow closer as I got older we would find something in common we both love and being around our horses any conversation I started all too soon ceased It is not as if I have not tried or let it get to me, for long after I cried in lines of communication open she is opposed but alas I have to take her off, I suppose I guess some siblings will never be friends even the same blood flowing through our veins does not make one a close family ally so what is she to me now, just a blood relly? Yes I am hurting and I am mad as hell but I am resilient so I will put up my shell give it to the Lord so He can take this pain and tomorrow I will be all smiles again Amanda Martin-Shaver © 13 May 2009 
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